Your First Love

     They say you'll always love your first love. They'll always mean something to you. They'll always be in your life. They'll always have a piece of your heart. They say you're always going to love them...but that doesn't mean you're always going to be in love with them. Someday you're going to fall out of love with them and fall into love with someone else. But you will always love your first love. 
      I think honestly it's not because of who they are or what they made you feel. I think it's solely because they made you believe in love. For the first time in your life, you knew what it meant to love someone and be loved in return, thanks to that person. 
     It's a blessing and a curse to always love your first love. It's a blessing because you were lucky enough to fall in love, even if in the end it didn't work out. They will always remind you of that. But it's a curse because for the rest of your life, you're going to wonder what it would have been like if it would have worked out. You're always going to wonder if it was your fault that it didn't. You're always going to wonder if you simply weren't enough. And you're always going to wonder if you ever will be. 
     Sometimes after our first love and our first broken heart, we wonder if we're ever going to be able to love again. We wonder how long it will take to break down the walls and allow ourselves to open up to somebody. We wonder if we're going to be hurt again. But the truth is, we don't know, we can't know, we'll never know. 
      That's how love is. It's mysterious and horrible and gut-wrenching. It breaks your heart and makes you feel like you have nothing without that person. But it can also be the most beautiful thing on this earth. It can make you feel like nothing ever happened. It can fix you. It can be everything for you. It can consume you. And while yes that's terrifying, it's also kind of beautiful. 
     I say you always be thankful for your first love having shown you that love does exist but you don't let the heartbreak tear you down. I say you always remember your first love but you learn to let it go.